So last night I was able to get to 15 minutes on the elliptical, fought for the last 3 minutes, and the last minute was so bad. I’m proud of myself and was feeling ok today so I wanted to put in my old play list from a couple years ago that I use to work out to .. and guess what, I got to 25 minutes tonight!! I’m so happy, but I want to cry .. not sure why working out makes me want to cry but I’m not giving up. I think it’s making me deal with wanting to give up in general and I know I can’t. Seems that working out can be therapy too.. It feels upsetting that I’m doing it because my mother died and I don’t want to leave James young .. so that’s at the front of my mind right now. I’m hoping with time that it will be replaced with feeling better and enjoying more time with the baby and not so much huffing and puffing or trouble keeping up with him. If anyone seen pictures lately of James he’s running at a year old already!!
So in honor of making it to 25 minutes, I’m listing my play list. Don’t mock it, It works lol
Miley Cyrus – Wrecking Ball
Rihanna – What’s My Name?
Lady Gaga – Alejandro
Miley Cyrus – We Can’t Stop
Ikea – Jonathan Coulton
The Presidents- Jonathan Coulton
Baby Got Back – Jonathan Coulton